Wednesday, April 15, 2009

a new name

Juliet: "What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet."

- Romeo and Juliet (II, ii, 1-2) In real life, unlike in Shakespeare, the sweetness of the rose depends upon the name it bears. Things are not only what they are. They are, in very important respects, what they seem to be. - Hubert H. Humphrey (1911 - 1978)
philip has asked me to consider re-naming my thesis...he's made a compelling argument: that emergence is too imprecise a term with which to define my work and that the imprecision and popularity of the term leads to a lack of engagement on the part of casual critics with my actual interests in favour of their own biases on the topic. not to mention that i need to be much more precise in all the research, writing, and presentation of my thesis. this is a challenging question...
the block the south block of main street between main and ainslie streets, cambridge ontario
this is frustrating...i'm going for a walk. another day has passed and still i am lost...and panicking.  today is mx reviews, and i haven't even got a title.
stoops, people, territory...
right and wrong - how people treat people
the haves and have-nots
the stoop
place, people
purGALTory
finding something to enjoy in this hole
i'd don't love galt, i have no interest in the hollow-core cities of ontario
i do love the bench-less parkette
i can't get a new yorker magazine without an hour or more on the bus
i wish i had a car
watching
participant observer
small steps
battles with my boss over whether the locals have a right to life
a role
"can't we ship 'them' to an industrial park"
the right to community
the role of the other
the role of the other
eccentric - Diversity of opinion
Each person should have private information even if it's just an eccentric interpretation of the known facts.
diversity
true/false
rue ruse
RUE
  • sorrow: sadness associated with some wrong done or some disappointment; "he drank to drown his sorrows"; "he wrote a note expressing his regret"; "to his rue, the error cost him the game"
  • repent: feel remorse for; feel sorry for; be contrite about
  • (French) a street or road in France 
differentiate between the tactic and the problem
rue rue rule
"a family comedy of the 1950s, is perhaps more important for what it has come to represent than for what it actually was. In essence, the series was one of a slew of middle-class family sitcoms in which moms were moms, kids were kids, and fathers knew best. Today, many critics view it, at best, as high camp fun, and, at worst, as part of what critic David Marc once labeled the "Aryan melodramas" of the 1950s and 1960s."
rue
hostility, power - remove the bench
prostitution
separate beds - twin beds pushed together
the rule the rule subvert the rule
fuck on the ledge, now that there is no bench
fuck you
what is the difference between stop and yield, between a traffic light and a traffic circle?
distract/divert your puppy to an acceptable chew toy
an acceptable outlet
frustration! bully..."NO!"
time...patience...mortality 
sleep seep seep into sleep
when i cannot sleep i lose my patience.  when time is tight i lose my patience. i ooze my patience.
when and where and when and where...why do i care? 
even if it is just an eccentric interpretation of the known facts...
leave emotion out
do not imitate
leave emotion out? peer pressure, a need to belong...
a need to belong - the traditional goal of community building is to belong/exclude
community and wise crowd are two different things...
could a city work better as a wise crowd than as a community? yikes. 
what do we lose? empathy? forgiveness?
do we work better together than apart? or apart than together?  it depends on why we need to work.
back to belonging...i contradict my own goal when i push for a wise crowd? maybe maybe
agency v belonging
a new name
blank bank cloud fog panic 
an alibi name...a better alibi
i keep changing my alibi...pick a lie and stick with it
ha! ambivalence
so much of non-profit work is about belonging...back to belonging
back to the very beginning...my first lie: non-profit v. for-profit (high density) housing
non-profit design is often focused on building in such a way that social misfits can become socially integrated...so that their neighbours don't lose their patience
and now i look not for social integration but for an acceptance/acknowledgement of the value of the misfit
the outlier
the benefit of not belonging...the value to the collective of the misfit
the misfits
the confrontation 
i seek confrontation. my mom avoids it. poor mom, having me. lucky mom, having me. 
a name!  give me a name!
give me a name i will take a name
i wish for a name
i wish wish wish fish
have you the reader lost all patience yet? with my ramblings my indulgence with me?
community and crowd
commune
come together, right now...
i want to tell you its ok not to belong, to live side by side and not know your neighbour
it is ok
it is good
community and crowd
stoop: community and crowd
stoop community crowd
stoop/community/crowd
!stoop!community!crowd!
sigh.  

1 comment:

agata said...

main street.

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there's one in every town... which sort of makes it interesting. but could also imbue it with the same vagueness you're trying to avoid.

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